A Glimmer of Light
By Amorifer, revised April 2009.Prologue
In 12th century China, the Zen Master Kakuan Shien wrote ten illustrated verses about an ox-herder and his ox. These depicted the ten stages of development in seeking Nirvana or Illumination. The ox is analogous to the true ‘inner-self’ while the herder is that of the earth-bound ego.
The first three illustrated verses are:
1) Searching for the Ox.
2) Finding the tracks.
3) Perceiving the Ox.
In this essay I would like to portray stage 3) as a soliloquy between Ox (Director) and herder (myself) with apologies to Shakespeare.
William Shakespeare explained in one of his plays that we are all actors upon the stage of life. I find this so very, very true. So fellow actors, are you like me, do you at times wonder what this play of life is all about? I guess not many of us bother anymore, because I have a feeling among all our scripts, we more or less see the same directive: "You have free will to improvise, get on with life!"
Well, I’m a bit tired of improvising and would like to act a more meaningful role, nothing as serious as a messiah, prophet or rocket scientist mind you, but maybe along the lines of someone like Aristotle, a thinker perhaps? Perhaps I should lower my ambitions!
As the curtains close for intermission, I run to the director’s office and fortunately he’s in. So I look at him squarely in the eyes and tell him about my desire to act out the role of a freethinker.
Act1, Scene1: Meeting the Director.
I’ve been expecting you, dear child, please take a seat! So you want to be a freethinker, yes? First of all… you’ve been given free will to live your life the way you want, isn’t that free enough for you?Me:
Well, yes, but I’m only free to live within the rules and laws set by society, and the personal guide lines I’ve set for myself learnt from religious beliefs and etiquette, if you know what I mean.Director:
Are you sure that you want to be a freethinker… or to think freely? [Enquires the director in a kindly all-knowing tone of voice.]Me:
Look I didn’t come here to play games! Will you get the scriptwriter to write some lines for me, so that I can act the role of a freethinker please? [I grumble, slightly annoyed.]Director:
Scriptwriter to write you some lines? But that will be against the prime directive, remember, you’re all free to improvise! You actors over the years established your own set of rules for behaviour in society, your scientists discovered laws of physics, botanists Nature, and so on…sorry no scripts for you! Freethinker you want to be, get on with it! [He says in a firm but kindly tone of voice.]Me:
Mr Director, I was told that you are the all loving, all forgiving, all knowing, ‘with your finger on the pulse of everything’… kind of Being, if you won’t talk to the scriptwriter, can I have a word with him, please?Director:
Dear child, I’m the scriptwriter as well as director!Me:
Oh! [Is it my imagination that he’s looking at his nails, getting bored?]Director:
No I’m not bored! And yes, I can read your mind, and of course the minds of all the other actors too.Me:
Gosh! I wish I could read minds, like you do Sir.Director:
You can, and occasionally you do, but if your mind was an open channel to all thoughts, you would be overwhelmed and distraught over some of the thoughts you would encounter, and the sheer volume of idle thoughts would drive you round the bend.Me:
Well, thank you for your time Mr Director, Sir. I’ll improvise at being a freethinker.Director:
Not at all, I have all the time in the world! [He winks knowingly at me on my way out.]
-o-O-O-O-o-Act1 Scene2: I’m still bewildered.
Well, I’ve been improvising at being a freethinker for a while now and I’m still unhappy with my performance as an actor on the stage of life. Okay, I’ll let you into a secret; my pretext at wanting to be a freethinker was to be wise like Aristotle. Thinks it’s time to revisit the Director. So during an intermission, off I run again to the Director’s office and he invites me in.Director:
I’ve been expecting you child, please take a seat!Me:
Mr Director Sir, in our previous conversation, you said you were the scriptwriter and director, and you gave me the impression that we actors didn’t have scripts as we were free to improvise, so how can you be the scriptwriter if there are no scripts? In fact, not wishing to be rude Sir, do we need you at all?Director:
When I said: ‘No scripts for you!’ That did not mean that there were no scripts at all. You may consider the way you live your life, the things you say to other people, your thoughts, the things you do, are all part of your script of life. Also don’t overlook the fact that there is the prime directive, a play is not just about reading lines on stage, you know. And yes, you do need me, as much as I need you, I’ll explain why, when you’re ready to listen!Me:
Mr Director Sir, I’ll come straight to the point, what is this play of Life all about?Director:
Dear child, sit comfortable, do you want the good news first, or the bad news?Me:
[Looks shocked, and thinks… Didn’t expect this!]Director:
Just joking! I see from your recent thoughts, you have been thinking much about our relationship. I don’t want your cup to overflow, and so will only reveal to you as much as you can take in at this time.Me:
Thank you Sir!Director:
You will have noticed my dear child, that your stage, Earth as you call it, is among the stars, planets and things material. As you entered my office did you notice the change to the immaterial? In the immaterial world that co-exists with the material world, there are differences in the rules and laws of existence. For example, cycles of growth and decay, time and gravity impact on matter; in the immaterial world, those laws do not apply. So that you may have some comprehension of what the immaterial world is, think of it as pure thought, that is, the script in the scriptwriter’s mind before he commits it all to paper.Me:
Oh Sir, this is mind boggling, but I think I understand what you’re getting at. So before you handed us each a script… in the immaterial world of pure thought, you had it all worked out in a grand scale, how the stars and planets should be born, grow and decay. When we actors should appear on Earth… etc. And all this occurred in the blink of an eye, because time doesn’t impact on the immaterial plane. But if you don’t mind me asking you Sir, why?Director:
You must not think that the immaterial world is only pure thought, but that is as good an explanation for you to be happy with, at your stage of development. Please don’t think I’m being patronising child, I do have your best interests at heart. As to why, and it’s a good thing I can read all your thoughts, as I have all the answers… I want to experience my perfection in a material sense and extended my mind through transformation into the material world. Notice I said transformation rather than created.Me:
Sir, does this mean that you extended yourself to be me too? [Bewilderment spreads over me.]Director:
I certainly did, and you are discovering one of the most important mysteries of life. To use material language here, I should say, ‘I certainly do,’ rather than ‘did,’ as I am with you always and forever, since you are the material existence of me extended and transformed, and I am the immaterial existence of you.Me:
Begging your pardon Sir, but if I am you, err… I’m so confused now… before you told me I am you… were I not just an actor? And you were just Director in the heavens above? I always thought that I was an individual, just as all the other actors are.Director:
It will take some time to absorb what I revealed to you as fact, I can feel you pulling against the reins, but work at it, you know I’m always right! As I said already, the way for me to experience my perfection in the material world, is to allow actors free will to pursue Life, how else can experience be got if total freedom to change is not allowed? In the immaterial world, freedom and change are unnecessary, as all is perfect all is absolute.Me:
I still can’t get over this revelation as yet Sir, I am you and you are me, why can’t I work miracles then? Hope I’m not trying your patience Sir!Director:
There are miracles and there are miracles! You and all actors are miracles, because you are of the immaterial world existing also on the material world! The miracles like changing water into wine, is when an actor is able to effect an event from the immaterial world into the material world. That is to say, pure thought from the immaterial world is transformed into substance in the material world. It is obvious, that since all of you are I, and I am fully conscious of what you actors are doing, I wouldn’t want to cause more confusion for you all, and will not perform open miracles as an every day event. Many so-called miracles are carried out unknowingly.Me:
Sir, I have a puzzling question to ask, if you extended your Divine Self into us actors, how can you be so evil as when you were Genghis Khan?Director:
And I am Aristotle, Akhnaton, Moses, Buddha, Jesus the Christ, Mohammed, Mahatma Gandhi, all the avatars, saints, sages, prophets and a countless number of good actors also. What you perceive as evil, is free will applied in a disharmonious and selfish way manifesting as pain and suffering to others just as doing good causes joy and happiness. Genghis Khan was not evil per se; it was his acting that was at fault. His followers, certainly didn’t think him evil. But I have given myself free will to do good and evil in the material world, as experienced by you and me, therefore be ever mindful of this fact, and help other actors to choose the direction of harmony that unites, rather than the direction of disharmony that separates. The range of evil to good is vast on Earth, but I am perfect and absolute in Light, Life and Love. I am Absolute Unity and will unify the chaos and separateness caused by evil or chaotic actions.Me:
Thank you Director, Sir, you have given me much food for thought! Oh, you know all this already, silly me, you are I, and I am you. It will take some meditation to work that one out! Thank you again Sir!Director:
Pleasure, do come again, dear child! Or should I say, dear me! And yes, I’m the Producer as well. Please close the door gently on the way out! (Smiles)
[Thinks: One of these days I’ll figure out how if he’s me, why can’t I know as much as him. I’ll have to ask him next time; after all, shouldn’t I know the answers to all questions if I’m him?]
Director: Good to see you again, my actor counterpart, I have the answer to your question before you even asked yourself (smiles.) Remember Queen Victoria’s famous words: ‘We are not amused!’…? Well the royal ‘we’ is you and I (each actor), and when ‘we’ are conscious of our-self in the immaterial plane, our knowledge is unlimited, for ‘we’ know all the questions and answers. However, experience is of the material world, for it is time dependent.
When ‘we ‘are conscious of our-self in the material world, (on stage acting) our experience is unlimited, for it expands with time, but our knowledge while on stage, will always be limited. After all, the part cannot be greater than the whole, and further our experiences will often be far from perfect.
We’ may consider our office a ‘bridge’ between the two planes, to enable ‘us’ to have soul-person exchanges concerning knowledge and experience.
See ‘us’ soon, bye! Oh, by the way, please listen to our prompting more often.
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